Girly Biopsies Suck.

I tell ya, I don't remember it hurting as badly as it did this time.

For any who I haven't mentioned this to...I had another irregular exam, and had to get another biopsy of my cervix this month. The procedure was yesterday, and while I've had this done before, I honestly don't remember it being so flipping painful. I was already freaked out because the last time I had this done, I actually watched the whole thing on a monitor. It was totally interesting, and rather fascinating, and it didn't bother me at all at the time, but since then, I've had this terrible fear of going to the OB/GYN. I just can't relax, I keep replaying my cervix being ripped apart, and those already invasive exams feel even more terrible because I'm so nervous.

So my word of advice - if you ever have the opportunity to watch your medical procedure...just say no.

As some of you may know, there is no anesthesia for this biopsy, local or otherwise. They basically just stick a little metal claw in there and pinch out a piece of your cervix about the size of a pinhead. It's not fun. Thankfully, this time they only had to biopsy from three locations. Last time, it was six. Of course this time, she was having hard time stopping the bleeding, so she kept having to go back in, clean up my poor raw cervix (which made me almost vomit), and apply pressure and some clotting agent. It was about ten minutes long, but I was sweating it big time.

I was lucky enough to have Jasmine there with me - a relatively new friend, but she's been through this before as well, and she works around the corner from the hospital and offered to come hold my hand. It made me feel a little like a child, but I was glad she was there. She was cracking jokes, so I was thankfully laughing/crying through it all. And she did hold my (sweaty) hand.

Unfortunately, I've been cramping and achy since then, which I don't remember from last time either. Last night it was pretty bad, but Bradley came over, and even helped me out with some energy work to soothe it a bit. I was surprised and very grateful for his willingness. Plus he brought ice cream, and took care of whatever I needed while I just laid in bed watching 1 hour dramas. :o) Boys can be awesome sometimes.

I find out the results in a couple weeks.

No pictures for this post. :)