Magical

I saw my first moonbow last night, and it was gorgeous. I wish that I had had my camera with me - it was a full perfect white ring around the moon. I felt.....well, I guess hopeful is the only word that really suits. I'm not sure why....but it was definitely hopeful.

It's shaping up to be a fun weekend - going to the Erin Smith concert tonight at Mulligan's. Tomorrow going to see The Duchess with Nicole, and Sunday possibly going to dinner in Paia. I'm a little sad that I don't have any massage scheduled for this weekend, but that means that I get to spend some time by the pool or maybe even snorkeling. Also might be singing with Ryan Robinson Band on Sunday too!! Should be a good one!

Disappointed once again by the Brad-man. He didn't do anything to make sure that date night happened this week, so I haven't seen him since Sunday, and I don't anticipate seeing him until Monday at the earliest. I've found that I've lowered my expectations of him to a point where my heart is starting to withdraw, and I feel like it might be the beginning of the end for us.

Come to think of it, I suppose that's why the moonbow felt hopeful for me. I've been feeling a constant, low-grade sadness tugging at my heart this past week - I suppose because I miss seeing Bradley, and because he hasn't made the effort he said he would - and I've found myself going over a break-up conversation in my head. Like it's inevitable. I don't think he and I have the same idea of what a relationship means. Which sucks.

We'll see what happens....only time will tell, and it all happens for a reason....